Made some decisions...

Just got back from meeting with Dr Margolin and I've decided to discontinue the chemotherapy.  I'm also discontinuing all of the other prescription drugs I'm taking for cholesterol, blood pressure and acid reflux.  My thought process is this: the temolozomide makes me feel really crappy, requires anti-nausuea drugs, supresses my appetite and for all that has virtually no chance of prolonging my life.  So I'm not going to do it.  The rest of the drugs are not really needed - my weight loss has taken care of my blood pressure and if I have a problem with acid reflux again I'll deal with it.  Right now I want to de-toxify my body from all these drugs as much as possible and hopefully that will help me feel better, at least in the short run.  And that includes my recent experiment with marijuana brownies.  A loving friend who will remain nameless helped me in that experiment and it's just too much trouble and too hard to figure if it even works and not needed once the chemo is ended.

So the only drugs I'm keeping are for pain management and sleep and I'm loaded for bear there.  When my body tells me something bad is finally happening we'll deal with it then.  At least (hopefully) until then I can operate normally, eat and enjoy it and get around without too much trouble.  I don't want to or expect to put much weight back on, but my taste buds are much better and without the chemo maybe I'll get an appetite back.  We'll see.  I'm just looking forward to my body cleansing itself for now, tomrrow is another day.  If I start feeling better maybe I'll get a little bit more travel in.  So that's it for now.  All my best to you.